For over a year, my intuition has repeated "You won't need your resume" when I asked how I will support myself. How's that for vague?
How do you do this? Since I couldn't "see" how that would play out, I did what I knew to do: pump out resumes for jobs that at least "felt" right. And by "right" I focused on jobs where I could provide a service NOT for the paycheck, but actually from my heart. Yes, I could work at Veggie Grill and serve from my heart at that place. Have you eaten their food? It's MAGIC!
Alas, no bites (job wise that is, there were some Veggie Grill bites :)).
It's been gettin' down to the wire lately. Leading with my heart has been challenging but strengthening. It's rare to clearly "know" something (like I "know" animals are worthy of individual consideration and compassion, like I "know" being a Reiki Master Teacher and Yoga Teacher are in my path, etc.). I KNOW that our world's morphing toward sanity will include ALL OF US only living from our hearts, and that the Universe will support whatever that is. I KNOW IT.
However, Old Mother Hubbard's Cupboard is gettin' bear....gulp.
Long story short, in the last 3 days, I've firmed up TWO separate opportunities to provide a service from the ol' ticker! One is helping my friends - whom I completely adore from the depths of my soul - with their new baby (whom I'm in love with) while Dad goes back to work and Mom writes for work at home. The other is providing assistance for an amazing soul as he shifts to a whole raw plant diet - I'll do the shopping and prep for him.
Both of these tasks are lead with my heart at the helm, and these beautiful humans are supporting my efforts as I support theirs.
I let love be my reasons and BOOM. The support is following. IN REAL TIME.
I DIDN'T NEED MY RESUME!
Take-aways from this:
My intuition's smarter than my brain:
In my efforts to strengthen the connection to my inner wisdom, I've needed to actually LISTEN to it's guidance. So often we negate or mute our inner wisdom in the face of fear, desperation and doubt. I've known in my heart that we as a collective are shifting to this type of "being" - not chasing the paycheck - providing a service with our heart, and the Universe will conspire to support whatever that is. This confirmed it for me.
I've taken away Fears drivers license:
Fear never disappeared during this process. Don't get me wrong, it's an important part of the human experience - I'm not knockin' it. I just didn't let fear dictate my choices. Despite a bumpin fresh resume with everything from leadership to support staff experience, i've not even been contacted for follow up with ANY jobs I've applied for - even ones I KNOW i'm qualified for (See how the Universe delivers its message to you even when you don't listen?). I faced the fear but never cowered or ran screaming in desperation to the lowest, possibly toxic, hanging fruit (assuming even they would hire me.). I rested in the "knowing" that a) i'd act as needed in the face of something "right" when it came along; b) that something "right" would ever even show up; and c) if i missed something "right" the first (or second or third) time, some other "right" opportunity would show up. I've strengthened my self love in this process. Bam.
Providing a service from my heart IS the journey AND the destination:
I believe the days of grinding the pavement, burning the candle at both ends, grumbling miserably through the 40 hour work week at a job that dulls your shine are O!V!E!R! Yes, it got scary for me at times (have I mentioned how FLIPPING AMAZING my support system is though??? You know who you are .....THANK YOU for believing in me and cheering me on while I integrate my "knowing". YOU HELPED THIS HAPPEN!!). Growing pains are called pains for a reason :P
In the last 3 months, I pursued the first steps of trusting the Universe in the face of uncertainty a) as I walked away from my living situation that wasn't right, only to be immediately met with the worlds most perfect security net; b) then leapt forward when my heart yelled "DO YOGA TEACHER TRAINING AND BECOME A REIKI MASTER TEACHER IN 2014" even though I had no way of paying for it, and now it's happening!; and c) yet again....when I held firm in the "knowing" that I could provide a service with my heart and be supported doing it.
I'm being taught how powerful living in love is (versus fear, desperation or guilt), how clear our true intentions manifest (yet in their own way, not the logical brains limited way), and how much support we really have when we act with our hearts. The greatest confirmations I could ask for!
Again, I'm eternally grateful for all of you came to my aid when I got the inner jolt for this most excellent journey of mine. I COULDN'T HAVE EXPERIENCED ALL THIS AWESOMENESS WITHOUT YOU!
Trust you inner wisdom.
Trust the Universe.
Trust Love as your reasons.
With love and gratitude,
Reiki Master Teacher
Yoga Teacher in Training
An east coast native, Nikki spent her college years and beyond as an activist for animals, the environment and social justice issues. Needing to make sense of and come to peace with everything along the way, she began her work on the spiritual level. When she realized that the conditions of our outer world are just reflecting the conditions of humanities inner world, her focus shifted to energy healing arts and yoga. Now a Reiki Master and Yoga Instructor living in San Rafael, California, she coaches clients and groups on vibration raising practices for self love and personal mastery - the recipe for global peace.
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